I Just Don't Know

"Come and take my heart..Carve a pendant out of it..And see what you can get from it.."

Going Back. Again.

I am going back..

Don't ask me why. I just want to go back. Again.
Yerp. Again.

Tak sampai sebulan datang dah nak balik..Haha..Sakit rumah kah..?

No la. Not that. I just don't know.

People, you will miss me.
No, not you.
Not you either.
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YOU.
Yes, YOU.
Got it..?
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Uhuh, nevermind..@.@

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I've been blogging since late 2008.

And I never knew how to change font type and size and some other things.

Till last month when I accidentally figured out the 'Compose' option to the right of 'Edit Html'.

But then it makes no difference to me. At least for now.

Pengemis

Mahukah kamu berkongsi denganku
sedikit manisan yang masih berbaki itu?
aku tahu kamu memerlukannya
begitu juga denganku
tapi aku tahu dan sedar siapa diriku
aku tidaklah segah dirimu
aku bukanlah setanding denganmu
aku hanyalah gelandangan hina
yang selalu bertemankan sepi
yang tidak layak kau kasihani
kerna aku tidak punya apa-apa lagi
hanya keinginan yang meninggi
meliputi seluruh tubuhku ini

Aku berjanji akan pergi
aku berjanji tak akan kembali
kiranya kamu bersimpati dan berkongsi
manisan kehidupan yang harum mewangi itu
kerna hanya itu yang aku cari
dan hanya itu yang aku pasti
yang akan membawaku pulang ke dunia realiti
setelah berabad lama bermimpi di fantasi
tapi masih mahukah kamu berkongsi denganku
sedikit manisan yang masih berbaki itu?

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"To wait for months is patience. To wait for years is devotion. In some ways, it's a painful experience, but in the end, if you can master that mix of patience and devotion, then you will have found the ultimate kind of love, that not everyone gets to feel."

Unexpected

Salam.

Asyik bermimpi benda yang sama. Walaupun cerita di dalam mimpi tu berbeza, tapi intisarinya masih sama. It leads to one thing. Just different storylines. Keep on dreaming the same thing for about two months already I guess. Hmmm...

Apa yang pasti, dah dapat pun salah satu dari mimpi-mimpi tu. Dah jadi realiti. And yes. I was so speechless and didn't know how to react upon that. Soo unexpected.
By the way, thank you very much for becoming part of my dreams and also for making it became real. Can I have more of my dreams become real..? Pretty pleaseee...Hehehe

Oh, thank you again. Really appreciate that. =)

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Emm kena tulis gak something. Kata nak rehat tapi..emm tak jadi laa.
So yeah. Memang kejap sungguh. 3 hari je. Haha.

100th

I will surely miss those bittersweet moments of us there.
See you again. All of you.
I'll come back someday.
So, till we meet again.
Thank you.
Bye~

Rapuh

Ranting kering yang mati
begitu rapuh sekali
tidak meliuk ditiup angin
tidak melintuk disinggah lagi
hanya kaku, kelu
juga tidak punya kuasa
untuk menahan amukan
si musafir dari langit-Nya

Dulu, ranting itu sungguh gagah berani
melawan kerenah garuda berjoli
menahan sialan rajawali berkelahi
menadah panahan fitnah halilintar
sungguh berkuasa menanggung segala raja
usahlah dibicara tentang si anak kecil
yang sekadar melawat sepi

Kini, semuanya hanya cerita basi
sekadar bualan si penyinggah setia
menjadi ingatan manis pada musafir azali
ranting kering itu hanya menunggu nasib
detik kehancuran abadi
untuk patah, jatuh
dan berkecai ditelan tanah
angkara penyinggah baru yang lalai.

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Ok siyes rasa menyesal sekarang sebab tak pergi naik bukit hari tu. Tengok balik gambar-gambar masa bulan 3, hmm rasa rugi sungguh balik cuti baru ni tak pergi. Haish..Bila benda dah ada depan mata ngan senang dicapai selalu je tak nak buat kan..Tapi bila semua tu dah takde, baru la nak menyesal pastu layan perasaan sorang-sorang..Aduii..

Tapi takpe la, sekurang-kurangnye dah buat sesuatu yang sangat puas hati masa cuti baru ni. Setelah 10 tahun menunggu akhirnyaaa..Dapat gak..Walaupun masa cuti dah nak abis..Sekejap pun takpe..Nak lama-lama of course la tak dapat..Hmm sabar menunggu je la nak tunggu the next time tu..Sape suruh tak pergi baru ni kan..? Sekarang tanggung la akibatnya..Haha.. =)

Kad Raya 2010

Oh, post ni dah lama patutnya dibuat. Masa mood Raya still in the air lagi. Ni Syawal pun dah habis. Tapi takpe ah. Nak tulis jugak. Hmm, tahun ni dapat kad raya. Setelah bertahun-tahun tak dapat. Tahun ni dapat satu. Satu pun takpe. Sebab ia sungguh bermakna. Siyesly. Dah orang ngada mintak kan, sure ah dapatnye. Hehe. Terima kasih. Sangat-sangat. (Mood terharu..tak dapat tulis lagi..)



p/s: Tahun depan nak lagi leh tak? Hehe =)

Lovely Garden Play

Nothing to hide anymore.
Nothing to lie anymore.
Everything is so damn clear.
So damn transparent.
I can see and feel almost everything.
Everything that I've been wondering before.

So good to have those lovely thorns,
ripping my cold hands whenever I touched them.

It's not easy. It will never be.
But somehow I have to face it.
I have to go through this garden.
Find the way to exit?
Nope. Never. Still want to play in it.
Still want to breathe those freshness.
Still want to see those beauties.
Those honey-sweet moments.

Yes, I am all covered with mud and dirts.
Gifts from the garden. Falling too many times.
And traces of thorny roses on my shirts.
Tearing off everything in their ways.
Bleeding and smiling seeing those wounds.
Collecting memorable scars. As souvenirs.

But still. I am here. Still want to play.
Still want to taste everything.
Maybe one day I will return home.
When I get tired.
Maybe.

All I Need - Radiohead

I'm the next act
Waiting in the wings

I'm an animal
Trapped in your hot car

I am all the days
That you choose to ignore

You are all I need
You are all I need
I'm in the middle of your picture
Lying in the reeds

I'm a moth
Who just wants to share your light

I'm just an insect
Trying to get out of the night

I only stick with you
Because there are no others

You are all I need
You're all I need
I'm in the middle of your picture
Lying in the reeds

It's all wrong, It's all right
It's all wrong, It's all right
It's all wrong, It's all right
It's all wrong, It's all right
It's all, It's all

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Hmm entah camne la boleh pulak sekarang ni tersuka kat ada beberapa lagu yang tak berapa nak sesuai ngan peringkat umur saya ni. Haha. Takpe ah, layan je laaaa. Dah rasa lagu tu sedap kan nak wat camne..

Kalau orang tahu malu seiii. Sape-sape yang tahu tu.. Shhhh..Senyap-senyap je tau..Hehe =)

Nevada 1.0

Emm..Haiii awakkk..
Baru je kenal 4 hari kan..
Tapi setakat tu je la..
Saya kena tinggalkan awak dah..
Cuti saya dah nak habis..
Huhu..Sedihnye..
Baru je kenal-kenal kan..
Tapi takpe la..
Sempat jugak kita pergi date 4 hari tu ye..
Tepi pantai waktu petang..
Orang lain sure jeles ngan saya..
Sebab saya ada awak..
Lain kali saya bawak awak kat tempat baru pulak yer..
Kawasan tanah tinggi ke..
Awak mesti suka..
Hmm, tapi awak..
Saya balik lambat lagi nanti..
5 bulan lagi..
Awak tunggu saya yer..
Nanti saya balik la tu..
Saya pun rindu kat awak tau..
Nasib baik ada gambar awak..
Dapat jugak tengok malam-malam sebelum tidur..
So ok la awak, nanti ye kita jumpa lagi..
Bye awak..My beloved mtb..

There's No Real Reason

"Amat menyedihkan apabila ia berakhir. Tetapi, kita semua tahu bahawa benda yang kita sayang pasti juga akan meninggalkan kita."
-J.K. Rowling