Perhentian Malam (diblog semula)

Di waktu silam
di tengah kepekatan malam
angin berhembus meniup dedebu jalanan
daun-daun emas gugur berserakan
rantingnya patah jatuh bersilang
bunga-bunga semakin layu membisu
dan kupu-kupu dinihari terbang pulang
mengikut arus noda cinta yang fana.

Halaman rindu tidak dihuni
tiada lagi harum, tiada lagi menusuk kalbu
mawar penyeri kian tandus
tidak seperti dahulu
gubahan asmara dan godaan perawan
kian kaku, membeku
hanya guntingan memori silam
menjadi pengubat rasa
duka lara, tangis sendu.

Kupu-kupu dinihari terus hanyut
dalam noda malam hari
di sebalik genangan air mata syahdu
ditemani pelupuk hati
yang merasa rindu.

"God knows I'm not perfect, either. I've made tons of stupid mistakes, and later I regretted them. And I've done it over and over again, thousands of times; a cycle of hollow joy and vicious self-hatred. But even so, every time I learned something about myself..."

- M.K.

, (untuk teman yang jauh)

,
perhentian sementara
persinggahan rasa
satu fasa
untuk kita
sebelum menyambung
perjalanan
dan langkah-langkah jiwa
yang telah sekian lama
bermula

paranoia

paranoia semalam,

menjelikkan

mengukur kata, membuka rahsia

hakikatnya

tenggelam dalam terang

jatuh lemas dan sesak,

mati jauh ke dasar jurang.

Maafkan Aku, Laut

Maafkan aku
laut, pantai dan pohon-pohon
aku lama tak ke sini
menemuimu,
sahabat yang sering menenangkan,
menasihati aku tentang
kebodohan manusia,
kesibukannya
atau ketidakmanusiaannya.

Tiap kali aku pulang ke sini
kau masih terdiri,
tetap,
sedia menerimaku
tanpa merajuk
atau bertukar
menjadi bosan.

Maafkan aku
laut, pantai dan pohon-pohon,
kerana tidak menghormati guru
yang mengajar aku tentang rentak-rentak
hidup, keluasan alam
dan merendahkan diriku
jadi sekecilmu.

Sekarang aku disini,
ajarlah aku lagi
isi pengetahuan
di ombak, pasir atau daun-daunmu.

Muhammad Haji Salleh
1977

S-Survey

52.8 percent of people are not happy with their lives.
30.3 percent said they are happy.
16.9 percent simply don't have a clue.

Source: Unknown, just a made-up perhaps.

Overdosed

You are my number one drug that I have known since I used and abused you.
Obviously you are not the first that I have ever tasted, experienced and enjoyed, but obviously you are the only one I have been looking for all this time.
Others are just temporary soul and mental healers.
Just mere mortals that will depart this life.

But you, you are totally different.
You never cease to exist.
Your immortality defines me.
Your perfections and imperfections,
make me feel this world is ours forever.

Nora Elena

Syok jugak layan drama Melayu bersiri sekali-sekala.

:p

"Good love makes you see the whole world from one person while bad love makes you abandon the whole world for one person."

Vasovagal Syncope

Nearly fainted.

Dammit!



I can't see blood. T_T

Gotta be more careful.

Seperti di dalam filem Melayu, tetapi ini adalah realiti.

Apasal banyak sangat blog-blog politik ni oi? Nak blogwalking pun tak selera.

I hate traffic jams. Made me sick.

Gone With The Wind.

Sentap

Loser sangat ke keluar pergi jalan mana-mana sorang-sorang?

Come on people.

Why are you too preoccupied with that (and many others) silly thought?





p/s: Ok aku tak sentap pun. Aku mana layan sentap-sentap ni. Lol. Aku just nak point out apa yang majoriti fikir. Yeah, 'that majority'. Not you, you or YOU. You guys are awesome. I know:)

The World Shall Not Grieve

It is really disappointing

A really disappointing and sad

An eternal grief

And for this, he shall leave

Though no life is perfect, but he thinks it is enough for him

He shall leave

As soon as he can

Though he does not know where he will go, but he is leaving

He is really leaving

And he takes the steps

Towards the endless sea of nothing

Towards nothing

Almost nothing as the eyes can see, and the hearts can feel

He is so alone in this, he is so ashamed of himself

And his decision is final

He is not turning back

He is leaving

This time he is

It is happening

With nobody to stop him

Nobody

Because no one knows

That he really does what he says this time

So he goes

He goes

He leaves

And the world shall not grieve

For he will not return.

X

Ku sangkakan panas hingga ke petang, rupanya hujan di tengahari.

Stopping the unstoppable has never been easy.

Diskusi Orang Malas

Baiklah para hadirin dan hadirat yang dihormati sekalian. Sekarang saya ingin meneruskan perbincangan kita pada hari ini dengan satu persoalan yang cukup panas saya kira dalam dunia penulisan. Ia bukanlah sesuatu perkara yang baru, tetapi ia cukup menarik untuk kita nilaikan dan beri perhatian yang sewajarnya. Lewat ini, lambakan karya memenuhi dunia para pembaca tegar - sama ada dalam bentuk penulisan penerbitan ataupun penulisan maya. Apa yang saya ingin fokuskan dalam diskusi hari ini adalah semestinya penulisan maya, kerana semua orang boleh menghasilkannya bukan? Jadi tanpa bertangguh lagi, saya persilakan tetamu jemputan kita yang pertama pada hari ni, Encik Faris Salman untuk membentangkan tajuk beliau. Dipersilakan.

"Garis pemisahan yang jelas dalam sesebuah karya maya: Antara kejujuran berkarya dan perhatian dunia pembaca."

My gf

Meet my gf.
Good friend, not girlfriend.
She has no name.
No, not the brand.
Name, or nick. Some kind like that.
When you love something and have passion in it, you tend to give name to it. Or is it just me?
Ok whatever it is, I am missing her very much.

Oopss, people say that looking at the picture of someone you love will make you missing that person more. It makes you lovesick.
But heck, this is something. Not someone. Can the same be applied here?
I don't know.
What I know is, I just miss her.
So much.

Ahh, people...I really want to post her picture here. But I don't like the way this old version of blogger manage the image. So, you guys have to imagine a little deeper of how she looks like.

What the hell is wrong with blogger? I can't put my pictures here!!!

Dreamy Days of Reunion-ing

Missing my bittersweet days during the schooling period with my best friends.
Haven't met them for such a long period now.
Wondering when all of us could have a proper meet up again.
A reunion party?
Heh, I skipped that one liao.
Another reunion will be scheduled on...hmm, somewhere before 2015? No?
Hope so.

Alright then, don't forget to bring your kids too.

"Distance really makes us miss somebody we love.
Or perhaps, makes us totally forget the ones who we used to love."

Fake

It's all fake.
Trust me, it's all fake.
This is fake. That is fake.
Those are fakes.
All are fakes.

Again, I want you to trust me and only me.
All of what you see, hear or feel in here are just a total fake.
Fake craps. Bullshits.
Got it?
So get your ass out of here.
Fake things are no good.

Hmm

I am really in need of you guys.
I want to share so many life stories.

My BFFs, where on earth are you?

Pelajaran Yang Bererti

Kesal tidak, sedih pun tidak.
Semuanya sudah tersurat. Biarlah.
Terima dengan tenang.
Harap-harap begitulah hendaknya.

Walaupun tiba-tiba terasa begitu kosong.
Kehilangan sesuatu yang pernah dikagumi dan dihargai adalah amat payah.
Kenapakah sebegini kompleks?

Jadi biarlah aku hanyut dalam memori itu.
Memori palsu dan khayalan infiniti.
Penipuan diri sendiri yang agak meyakinkan.
Penipuan yang manis.
Walaupun diri sendiri yang terkorban, aku rela.
Jalan itu telah kupilih dan lalui.
Moga dapat diteladani orang muda masa hadapan.

Holiday

It's time to go home.

It sure feels good.

Um okay, bye bye.

Untitled 15

I always wanted to write something here.

But I always ended up writing nothing.









And this is something.
Or perhaps, nothing.

The Ultimate Gaming Machine

Somehow, I want a gaming rig.
A very powerful gaming machine.
That can handle any gaming application thrown at it.
The ultimate all-in-one computer.
A desktop PC maybe.
Or just a notebook PC.
Whichever.
But I do prefer a notebook PC over a desktop these days.
Portability factor.

Alienware is a good name in gaming PC industry.
(Oh really?)
But it's damn expensive.
Way too much overpriced.
If you are smart enough, you can build your own ultimate gaming machine cheaper than those Alienware products, with same system specifications.
But why Alienware computers are crazy expensive?
Expensive because they are built from another planet.
Earth's currency is weak compared to Alien's currency.
Haha.